What I'm really doing here

Announcing on your blog that you aren't very "computer savvy" (as my mom lovingly calls it) is probably similar to the looks I often get when I show up to a sporting event (except I don't show up often). Looks and stares flood my direction as people wonder-and most often ask-
what in the world are you doing here?

Sometimes I ask myself that question about being in this wonderful little blogging world.

what in the world are you doing here? you have no idea what you'e doing.

My computer knowledge is basic at best. I much prefer cutting with a pair of pink scissors than cropping and resizing on the computer. When I want something to look differently in real life when I'm creating something...well I just make it differently. Not so in this land. There are proportions and distortions to consider and more jargon than there are letters in the alphabet. (No proof of that yet but I'm willing to bet on it.) I have been raised around computers my entire life, but it's just not my area of expertise.

But you see, I feel led to be here. I feel a calling to minister to you-yes you. God placed a desire in my heart to help people. It's all I've ever really been sure of when asked the question what I wanted to be when I grow up. When I graduated from high school and all of my loving and well-intentioned friends and fellow church members asked me what I wanted to do next I would often smile brightly and say, well I really just want to help people! They always had a blank stare as they waited for me to explain what that would look like in my life. The explanation never came though.

But in bits and pieces it did actually. In my early college years when my naive heart wanted to run from the youth group that I had been raised in the past 6 years (I was too old and cool you know), God told me to stay and help raise up the next generation. So I did. A few years later He told me to visit high schools and mentor troubled teenage girls. So I did. Somehow I thought the desire to help other people would come with a clear road map of what that would mean. I never got that map. I was never good with directions or a gps either. But looking back, He has still led me to some really amazing places with no warning or planning at all. He simply doesn't need my planning.
But I do. But I would like it sometimes.

So when He called me to start this blog I thought it would simply be for me at first. It would be for me to write out our story in the way of just simple days and moments. But that wasn't what He was calling me to do with this at all. He was calling me to encourage other women like me, or completely different from me. He was calling me to point to Him in all that I do and to use my voice to share His love and the way He changed me and saved me not only from an eternity without Him but from myself as well. To share the desire He has given me for leading Godly lives and Godly marriages and families and how difficult that really is to live out day by day. How we really need each other's support, encouragement, prayers, and ideas if we're ever going to really do this thing called Godly living. So I come here to this little page and I try to do just that. No matter how inadequate I feel. Or how many times I stay up until 3 am trying to figure out how to do something on this thing that takes most people minutes. Or how many days I feel as if I'm talking to an empty room. I'm here because God has called me to be. No planning or prerequesite required.

For the One who calls me is faithful, and HE will do it. (1 Thessalonians 5:24)

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